Changing:Growing

Another month has gone by without much desire to blog

In that month there has been:

many thoughts.prayers.realizations.and most of all learning about myself.

I have found that in the toughest times in my life (though there has been few) is when I do my most growing.  

The past 3 months have been crazy... 

but the craziness has slowed and my future is looking bright and amazing!  

Thank you Thank you Thank you to all of my AMAZING family and friends who have gotten me through everything... not only in the past couple months.. but for the past 24 years.  

Withought you and God I dont know where i would be now 

Jeremiah 29:11

-thanks Nicole for showing me this verse... its perfect-

first blog in 2 months!

two months can go by so fast... yet sooo slow....

two months ago was when David and I ended things between us.

I feel like I have been taking two steps forward and one step back since all of this started. 

I dont know alot of things right now (when it comes to David and I)

but i do know that i really need to start doing me again..

-Church

-Blogging

-Working out

-BlackDagger

-most of all.. smiling... i have found that i have lost my smile.

New Direction

There has been a couple of changes in the Lesko household...

~papa went on long term disability from work.. 

 he was in a car accident 2 years ago and is still having sever neck pain. 

He was in a mix of emotions yesterday and today

happy to finally get some relief from his pain but, very sad to say bye to everyone who he has been working with for the past 19 years..

~There has been a huge change in my life..

 it is crazy you think you have your life planned out and then all of sudden it just falls apart then taken in completely different path.

This past Tuesday.. David dropped a bomb on me..

 he told me he wasn't happy anymore and didn't want to be with me.

  I am in complete shock!

The thing that hurts the most is that he said he didn't want to try and work on our problems.  I thought I meant more to him.. after 3.5 years I thought he would have more respect for our relationship.  I think he just wants to be single and looking for a way out

but

I don't really know what to think.. 

I have been doing a lot of praying for guidance and strength.  All I can do it take it day by day and make sure that I take care of myself.  I still love him with all of my heart. 

He and his family will always have a place in my heart. 

*God has a plan for every situation.. I just hope I see His plan soon*

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Study+Study+Study

I feel like that is all we do sometimes!

I know I gush about this amazing man all the time (probably to much) 

but I cant help it... I could just stare at him all day!

Im happy that 3.5 years later and I am still head over heals for him

most of the time ;)

♥

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Valentines Day... A day of Love!

Since David and I are both poor college students ... We had an amazing day spent in our cozy apartment!

+ Movies all day

+Tulips

+Homemade cards

+ Homemade Pizzas and Oreo Cheesecake

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40 degreese ... 

1st day the window has been open in months!!

Im so excited for SPRING to come♥

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-Oatmeal

-Honey

- Almonds

- Raisins

-Pumpkin Coffee

*Delicious*