*Christmas*

Wow! almost 5 months since I last wrote! Holy cow...  

These past couple months have been busy to say the lease.  I started my surgical tech program at the end of August and also got a job at Starbucks around that same time.  I am in LOVE with both of these new and exciting adventures in my life.  This past two weeks I have been prepping for finals... and my LAST test is on Monday!!! SUPER excited... def need this Christmas break.

Speaking of CHRISTMAS ...

it is RIGHT around the corner! SUPER excited <3

Christmas is my FAVORITE holiday.. foremost because

♥ It's Jesus birthday ♥

& I love winter and snow. 

Everything seems so much cozier with the tree up and decorations all over the house...

but sadly there is no snow in Wisconsin.

who would have thought ... December 16th and STILL no snow

Such love

This little girl is waiting for me every morning at the bottom of the stairs...

such an amzing way to start your day!  

I love my little button ♥

operation: get fit

One of my best friends of over 10 years is getting married on November 12th!!

We all love him and he is perfect for her!

It is a quick wedding... they got engaged over memorial day weekend (in New Orleans ...jealous!)  

She is a VERY organized person and has almost everything in order already.  About a month a go we tried on our dresses in Davids Bridal they are amazing... I would say even perfect!  

They fit great.. 

love the color...

look beautiful...

plus we can wear them again!  

She picked them up about a week ago and yesterday all the bridesmaids got together to put the invites in order... sooo we all tried on our dresses!!

To my luck... it doesn't fit..... yup, that is right... it doesn't fit. 

It zips and clips... but i feel like I am going to pass out!  

I now have 3 months to drop a couple pounds... 

Wish me luck :/

Lettuce.Love

First LETTUCE of the summer.. looooovee home grown veggies

Cant wait for the cucumbers.. tomatoes and onions to be picked♥

yummmmmm

♥

Changing:Growing

Another month has gone by without much desire to blog

In that month there has been:

many thoughts.prayers.realizations.and most of all learning about myself.

I have found that in the toughest times in my life (though there has been few) is when I do my most growing.  

The past 3 months have been crazy... 

but the craziness has slowed and my future is looking bright and amazing!  

Thank you Thank you Thank you to all of my AMAZING family and friends who have gotten me through everything... not only in the past couple months.. but for the past 24 years.  

Withought you and God I dont know where i would be now 

Jeremiah 29:11

-thanks Nicole for showing me this verse... its perfect-

first blog in 2 months!

two months can go by so fast... yet sooo slow....

two months ago was when David and I ended things between us.

I feel like I have been taking two steps forward and one step back since all of this started. 

I dont know alot of things right now (when it comes to David and I)

but i do know that i really need to start doing me again..

-Church

-Blogging

-Working out

-BlackDagger

-most of all.. smiling... i have found that i have lost my smile.

New Direction

There has been a couple of changes in the Lesko household...

~papa went on long term disability from work.. 

 he was in a car accident 2 years ago and is still having sever neck pain. 

He was in a mix of emotions yesterday and today

happy to finally get some relief from his pain but, very sad to say bye to everyone who he has been working with for the past 19 years..

~There has been a huge change in my life..

 it is crazy you think you have your life planned out and then all of sudden it just falls apart then taken in completely different path.

This past Tuesday.. David dropped a bomb on me..

 he told me he wasn't happy anymore and didn't want to be with me.

  I am in complete shock!

The thing that hurts the most is that he said he didn't want to try and work on our problems.  I thought I meant more to him.. after 3.5 years I thought he would have more respect for our relationship.  I think he just wants to be single and looking for a way out

but

I don't really know what to think.. 

I have been doing a lot of praying for guidance and strength.  All I can do it take it day by day and make sure that I take care of myself.  I still love him with all of my heart. 

He and his family will always have a place in my heart. 

*God has a plan for every situation.. I just hope I see His plan soon*